I wrote this blog several months ago, and I never posted it. Why? I don’t really know. Maybe I needed time to figure things out. But I thought it was a beautiful moment for me, and I’ve come so far since then. I hope you enjoy and that it helps someone!
Last week, I went for a run to my happy place. I was seeking solitude and a moment alone with God. I sat down in the grass, watched the sun set, and started talking and crying simultaneously. The everyday stress had been overwhelming, and I began to have flashbacks of my relationship with Taco Runner. We broke up 4 months ago, and I’ve accepted and dealt with the emotions of the breakup. But during my moments of stress and chaos, I think of him. Why?
During our relationship, Taco was my escape. Whenever something would go wrong with my family, friends, or in life – he would always be there. I never had to deal with my personal issues myself, because he was always there to back me up. It’s no wonder why since we broke up I’ve had several self-empowering moments of awareness. I’m actually having to deal with my issues instead of running away to my escape – my boyfriend.
Letting go of my relationship & the pain it has caused me means also letting go of any escape from my problems. Experiencing what love is was an amazing experience, but this breakup has been one of the best things that could ever happen for the growth of my spirit. I am reluctantly thankful.